three breads and slices of pizza

For the love of baking

Up until the beginning of the lockdown, I have been lucky as I would get freshly baked sourdough bread delivered to me directly by mum. Now, this is no longer the case so I decided that I have to start baking my own bread. I bake using fresh flour delivered straight from the mill. I also have my own sourdough starter which I feed every day. I made some bread before but they were rather poorly...

Meditation in the time of the pandemic

Instead of researching a daily death rate I wish I could just meditate I wish I could just sit there And focus on my breath But every day a new challenge Of what to make for diner And where to take a walk Because I can't slow down And can't properly talk I'm in a rush despite just being only here I'm worrier that if I go out There are people everywhere It;s not possible to stay human And keep a...
Pond in the woods

I wish I could meditate…

Warning: contains a detailed description of childbirth. Might not be suitable for mothers- to be or sensitive readers. Before I gave birth to my son, I thought that following his birth, I would write about how my healthy diet/exercise and meditation helped me to have a natural birth I always thought I would have. As it often happens in life, the circumstances changed and this was not the case....

The raisin exercise.

A couple of weeks before my son turned six months, I introduced him to solid foods. And this reminded me of the raisin exercise, which we did during the first class of the mindfulness course. The raisin exercise aims to teach us how to eat mindfully. It starts with touching a raisin with your hand. Before eating it, you smell it, you touch it, you look at it. You appreciate it, every single...

Seagulls

Today seagulls woke me up According to the weather forecast, it was supposed to be a nice day Seagulls are apparently the souls of seamen and sailors who left this world So I just remembered that day when I was sitting and looking at the window And a seagull looked at me As if it was trying to tell me something To pass a message to me Could it be the soul of my Dad Telling me to stay strong...

How mindfulness shifted my mind: the 14th of March

The past twenty years, my teenage and early adult years have been extremely difficult for me and my family since my Dad tragically passed away from cancer in 1999. He was only 47 years old. Over those years, I managed somehow. I got by. Additional struggles, to do with school and work arrived. Being constantly judged, being told that you are good but not good enough is not helpful when you are...
Deep snow

Looking back into 2018…

Last year we had it. We had a proper winter. The biggest I have experienced since I came to the UK 14 years ago. Why am I writing about the Beast from the East only now? Well, the past 12 months have been very busy. I worked full time in HR and opening the computer on return home was the last thing I could think of. At the weekends, on the other hand, I preferred to spend time outdoors and also...